Life was a lot more fun before it became my job to serve ryan. I was told it was my fucking job to cook and clean and get him something to drink because he works for two weeks, busting his ass. And I don't have a job anymore because he wanted me to quit because he doesn't like me to have any issues or problems. yet if there is a problem and he asks whats wrong he just gets mad and starts yelling. I've got myself into an even more controlling relationship than before, and I'm still not allowed to be upset or disagree with what they say. it's been 8 months and already he's threatened to end the relationship because he cant deal with me being upset or sad. how weird is that? Today I was making breakfast and he said I was so pretty and I had just gotten out of the shower and had no make up on and my hair pulled back into a ponytail.. I didn't feel pretty. and I said, stop it.. I'm not pretty right now! and I smiled.. but instead I got anger in return. It just seems like we're drifting apart.